Big News

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I have some big news.

My favorite higher education publication, The Chronicle of Higher Education Vitae, which is never behind a paywall (#openaccess, y’all), has picked up these blog posts as a new column for their publication.

Thus: The Freelance Academic Blog will now be the Freelance Academic Column at Vitae.

Thanks, folks, for reading this blog, and head on over to Vitae to read more. Vitae will provide the added benefit of allowing comments on my columns (which, for many reasons, I never have allowed here  ;) )

See y’all around.

Epiphanies and Bending Reality

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This post recounts my epiphany of the week, courtesy of my friend Sara who gives me all of my epiphanies. (For those of you who already live the way I’m about to describe, please don’t judge me.)

The epiphany happened at lunch with Sara when she spoke some “words” to me. Usually, my brain processes words. Words are a thing my brain can “do,” you know? But, as she was speaking, I kept saying, “What?” “What?” “Huh?” and she kept repeating herself in new and different ways, and her palm was twitching like she wanted to bop my head (okay maybe I’m imagining the palm part Sara, but you have to admit you really were wanting to or at least you were wondering if maybe the beer was affecting me more than it should have).

The point is, I was very resistant to the epiphany at first. I LITERALLY (in the literal meaning of the word) could not process the words Sara was saying to me.

But Sara stuck with me until the epiphany occurred, and all was well. No bopping.

The Conversation

Just recently, a law school sent me a recruitment email for a tenured position in a cool city across the country. At first I was excited to receive the email. But then I realized I couldn’t have this job because it is located far away and my family can’t move, and anyways I don’t want to move. [1]

I told all of this to Sara, and she said, Did you tell them you don’t want to move?

I said, No.

She said, Why not?

I said, Because.

She said, Why not?

I said, Because.

She said, Why not words words I can’t understand words words I can’t understand.

I said, ???????????

And then I had the epiphany.

The Epiphany 

Sara said something like, Why don’t you ask them to make the job into something that you DO want?

I couldn’t understand how that would even be possible. I said some nonsense about distance-learning and ABA standards blergity-blerg. In retrospect, I suffered from a major failure of creativity.

For those of us living alternative-academic, post-academic, and freelance lives, we don’t have set tracks to follow. Our tracks are, by necessity, set by our own creativity. They literally (there’s that word again) are what we make them.

When we’re confronted with a job offer or a gig that isn’t quite right, instead of turning it down outright (like I did), we have to make it right—through negotiation or other tactics. We have to ask our counterparts to reconfigure what they’re asking us to do so that we no longer have any of the worries/issues/etc. that are holding us back.

But—and this is the hard part—we often have to do so in such a way that is so far off the track that no one would ever think of it. So, the burden of creativity on us is really high.

An Example

My friend is a dermatologist. She said “no” to a last minute AWESOME interview with a major TV station in New York because she wanted to spend a rare afternoon with her kids. The interview wouldn’t have taken long, but arranging childcare and interrupting her day with them would have been too difficult.

Plus, the TV people needed her RIGHT THEN. (Welcome to television, apparently. Not that I would know anything about that.)

When she told me about her dilemma, later, and asked me for advice, I drew on my new epiphany. I told her this: You could have said, “Yes, awesome. Love to. You have an intern to watch my kids for 30 minutes, right?”

She was like, “THAT’S BRILLIANT. They would never have thought of that, so I have to think of it for them.”

I felt so smart. (Sara, you make me SO SMART.)

Yes, the burden of creativity lies on those of us who take alternate tracks. But we have more power than we think to bend reality in our favor. We just have to start asking.

If you need help coming up with creative solutions, you aren’t alone, either. Reach out to your freelance academic colleagues on Twitter or blogs; hire a coach. It’s likely you aren’t the first one to face the particular challenge that you are facing. Ask for some creative brainstorming help.

“I need to bend reality a little bit today. Anyone feel like helping me?”

Answer: Absolutely.

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[1] There’s a forthcoming post about the other reasons why a job on the tenure-track is probably not right for me any more. I think I’ve been ruined, in the good, old-fashioned meaning of the term.

#ArticleRemix & Escaping the Double Bind

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Suggested Reading: “What’s the Point of Academic Publishing” by Sarah Kendzior (@sarahkendzior) for Chronicle Vitae.

Suggested Watching: Adjunct Action‘s Conversation with Rebecca Schuman (@pankisseskafka) (along with host Sean Michael Morris and panelists Lee Skallerup, Joe Fruscione, and me).

I. No More Adjunct Heroism, No More Academic Publishing

Earlier this year I was at a critical moment in my academic career: I’d spent 11 years searching for a tenure-track job and then just gave up. I decided had better ways to spend my time and money than on the academic job search.

Essential to being on the perpetual academic job search is publishing as many articles as one can in academic journals and edited collections. The job search also requires presenting at as many prestigious professional conferences as possible. For the past few years, I’ve been running myself into the ground.

I’ve also been missing milestones: my eldest kid lost his first tooth just this past weekend while I was off giving a talk at a conference. I got to chat with him about it on FaceTime.

Protip: It’s not the same.

To use Rebecca Schuman’s term from her recent Adjunct Action Conversation, I was playing the “adjunct hero” (not a term of praise) hoping that my tenured colleagues would grant me membership in the tenure-track club. Now, I know THAT is never going to happen. I know because I finally asked the person in charge this past February.

I have one more academic article that I have committed to write, due this October, and then, as far as I can see into the future (which, as we all know, is not very far), I’m done. I do not plan on writing any more “traditional” academic articles.

I’m kind of beside myself with joy after making this decision.

II. The Publishing Double Bind & the #ArticleRemix

With this context in mind, I reread Sarah Kendzior’s Chronicle Vitae article on academic publishing this morning, and this paragraph particularly resonated:

With the odds of finding a tenure-track job against them, graduate students are told to plan for a backup career, while simultaneously being told to publish jargon-filled research in paywalled journals. Scholars who bet on that insular system find themselves stranded when that system fails them, as it does most. Appeasing academics means alienating alternatives.

Academics on the tenure track are stuck in a double bind: (1) Make yourself attractive to a field where you are unlikely to find work by publishing articles that are hard to locate, read, and understand. Or: (2) Make yourself attractive to fields outside of academia by publishing your work in an accessible fashion (easy to locate and easy to read)—but making yourself seem un-academic as a result.

Accessibility on both the readability front and actually getting-your-hands-on-it front are equally important, as Sarah pointed out. So much academic writing is hidden behind paywalls. And then, when you finally can download an article, the knowledge it contains is hidden behind field-specific jargon (some of which is completely unnecessary for the making of meaning).

This lack of accessibility means that often no one outside of a narrow field can put to use the important ideas that many, if not most, scholars are developing today. And yet, embracing this lack of accessibility is required in order to be taken seriously as a scholar.

After reading Sarah’s piece again this morning, I tweeted what I’m sure is not an utterly original idea (if only because there are no original ideas)—but it was an epiphany at least to me:

Liana Silva Ford (@lianamsilvaford) and Kelly J. Baker (@kelly_j_baker) hopped into the discussion, and the #articleremix was born.

So here’s the challenge, #ArticleRemixers: Take your amazing scholarly work, and write about it in on your blog or on a guest post on another blog. Avoid jargon. Keep it short. Make it meaningful to people outside your field. Show us how we can use your ideas to make the world a better place, even in a small way. Then tweet a link to the post using the hashtag #articleremix (and @me so I know you did it and can boost your work).

But first, make your original article publicly accessible on an open-access repository and link to the original article in your blog post.

Here’s how.

III. Open-Access Repositories as Paywall Work-Arounds

Today’s conversation reminded me of another one I had on Twitter with Karen Gregory (@claudiakincaid – Mixed-Up Files FTW) back in April. She and I chatted on Twitter about the pros and cons of “publishing” her dissertation online via Proquest.

Simply put, it seems that new Ph.D.’s face another double bind: if you want your dissertation research available for others to read, you have to hand over rights to Proquest to publish it. Or something like that.

Indeed, part problem was that the rights situation was very confusing.

Tweets by Karen and Katie about feeling confused by Proquest

So Karen and I started talking about free public repositories that provide ways for scholars to share their work without a paywall and retain full rights to their work at the same time. These repositories are springing up all over the place.

The one I’ve been using the longest is the Social Science Research Network ( Although you create an account in order to upload your work, the account doesn’t cost you anything. Plus, you can search for articles—and download them—without logging in. The articles you upload are indexed on Google Scholar, making it easier for the wider world to find your stuff.

There are newer (and nicer looking) public repositories now, including,, and BEPress’s SelectedWorks (here’s mine). The Google Scholar indexing means that your work is easier to find by independent scholars and by others, such as journalists, who may be looking for experts such as you.

Warning: #Fancy publishers such as Taylor and Francis get really freaked out when you put a PDF of your own articles up on SSRN or other repositories and will send you angry emails to take them down. They’ll email SSRN too, and force SSRN to take them down.

This is very annoying.

Here’s the deal: You have the right to make your work publicly available in two ways, even when your work is published by #fancytaylorandfrancis.

(1) You can upload the PDF of the actual journal article to your own website along with some canned language they require you to use. (Check out the paragraph that begins “Author Posting” on my web page here for an example.)

(2) You have a right to post on a public repository (and on all the public repositories) a PDF of your own creation of an “author’s version” of the article—say, the final Word doc that you submitted for publication.

Get your work out there. Take control of it. Make it available. Then, once it is all out there, write your #articleremix and link it to the downloads. Sweet.

IV. What’s the Point

After thinking about #articleremix and repositories and the meaning of academic publishing this afternoon, it seems to me that my doctoral program did a really great job training me to be an expert in an area of study—but not a really great job training me to share this expertise with the world outside of academia.

And if we experts can’t share our expertise, then what’s the point of being experts?

After all this grumbling, I should say that I might return to academic writing eventually. Currently, writing for more public fora, such as smart online venues, is satisfying my need to investigate and put those investigations into words. But—if I can find meaning in academic work beyond the silly hope I used to hold for a tenure-track job, then perhaps I can bring myself to publish again.

After all, as Sarah K. writes at the end of her Vitae article, scholarship for the purpose of gaining an academic job—one you may likely never get, given the odds—means that all of your scholarly work might leave you feeling empty (as I feel). But:

When you orient your scholarship toward its obvious yet overlooked purpose—furthering human knowledge—its value does not need to be determined by others, because the value lies in the work itself. This is what counts.

Freelance Academic Manifesto

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So, what does it mean to be a freelance academic? From my first post on this topic:

To be a Freelance Academic is to recognize this bifurcation that we contingent professors face, and then to try to mend it.

So, on the note of “mending,” here are some new rules to live by that I dreamed up (and stole, erm, borrowed) for this new paradigm that I’m exploring. This is an incomplete list. [1] I thought the list might help others, so I’m sharing it here.

As we’re all figuring out together in the #altac, #postac, and #adjunct communities online, there are changes that one needs to make to leave behind dead-end traditional academia and move toward freelance academia.

Update, 8 September 2014:

I have some good news. My favorite higher education publication, The Chronicle of Higher Education Vitae, which is never behind a paywall (#openaccess FTW), has picked up these blog posts as a new column for their publication. Thus: The Freelance Academic Blog will now be the Freelance Academic Column at Vitae.

The first post for the column will be this post, “The Freelance Academic Manifesto,” updated and expanded and generally far more awesome. I’ll link to the column right here when it comes out, which will be soon.

Thanks, folks, for reading this blog, and head on over to Vitae, which will provide the added benefit of allowing comments on my columns (which, for many reasons, I never have allowed here ;) ).

Update, 11 November 2014:

The column was published on 31 October 2014 (auspicious!) and you can access it here!


On New Leaves and Networking

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It’s been over a month since I posted last, but I refuse to fall into that overdone genre, the blog apologia.

Instead I will give a brief update on the first month of living and working as a freelance academic.

By way of overview, I can tell you that this first month has been awesome in one particular way: the community of adjuncts, post-academics, alternative academics, and writers that I have joined (read: barged in on) have reached out their collective (often virtual) hands to help me create a freelance life.

What a wonderful change.

One of the aspects of academia that I dislike most, that I find most baffling (and that will likely reveal me to be palpably naive) is the tendency of mainstream academics to hoard their treasure, whatever it is. Connections, courses, cash—academics don’t like to share. The spotlight is always only big enough for one. [1]

And we wonder why higher ed is falling apart. No one in there can work as a team.

My point is, as Robert L. Oprisko observed recently, when you’re not a mainstream academic, on the tenure track or with connections to the limelight, you have to work as a team. And no folks are better at working as a team than #postacs, #altacs, and #adjuncts.

Good lord I’m so happy to be working with these people. [2]

Here’s where these connections have led me in just four weeks.

The first edition of my new regular column is coming out today in Chronicle Vitae. (Chronicle Vitae is, in columnist Jacqui Shine‘s words, The Chronicle of Higher Education’s “scrappy kid sister & therefore the best.”) I have a current columnist’s generous referral to her editor to thank, in part, for my current job there.

And I’m now part of a fiction writer’s network led by my friend and brilliant novelist Ann Garvin. (Go buy her latest novel, The Dog Year. It just came out last week.) It feels so great to be part of a writing community again, and I have Ann and others’ generosity to thank for inviting me in. (You can check out some of my narrative writing here.)

And I’m now working on an edited collection for a trade press (as any #postac will tell you: no more writing for free), and a guest column for Inside Higher Education. All of this courtesy of #postac and #altac networking, often via Twitter.

Yes, networking. A word with strange and sometimes ugly connotations. But don’t you think, in our new virtual age, we can strip the word of its sleaziness and imbue it with what it has given me these last few weeks? A community, and hope?

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[1] There are some exceptions that I have encountered, and they are my dear friends. I’m silently nodding to you here, and you know who you are.

[2] By “these people,” I’m referring to, in no particular order, and in an admittedly incomplete fashion, Kelly J. Baker, Joe FruscioneElizabeth Keenan, and many others.

What Does It Mean to Be a Freelance Academic?

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Those who’ve actually been reading this blog for a while (not that there’s been much to read until recently) might have noticed dramatic changes in the last couple of weeks:

– I changed the website design from one that was basically an online CV for an academic to one that is, well, not.

– I gave the website a title: The Freelance Academic.

– I started blogging a lot more. More importantly, I started blogging about more important things.

These changes might not sound like much, but for those of us who are or were #adjuncts and #contingent academics (like @readywriting, @professorF74, @kelly_j_baker, @claudiakincaid), they are a big deal.

I’ve dumped my online academic identity and claimed one as a freelancer—even while very much maintaining a contingent post at a university. And, on the blog, I’ve stepped outside of the boundaries of acceptable academic discourse to engage in what one of my doctoral advisors called “fist-waving.” (He wasn’t using that phrase as a compliment.) In short, I’m creating distance.

I’m creating distance because the problem with being in academia is


Let me start over.

I’m creating distance because one of the many problems with being in academia is that you cannot see the proverbial forest for the trees. As Rebecca Schuman (@pankisseskafka) has accurately put it (many times), academia suffers from a “cult-mentality” that is hard to see until you step away from it. 

(By the way, even the stalwart Schuman (yes you are stalwart) frets in the face of freelancing. I’m feeling WAY better about my own fretting.)

So, to create some distance from academia, I made some changes to my online identity. And then this week I made a big change to my real-life one. I asked for a year of unpaid leave from work, and they granted my request. (And I am grateful, truly.)

For a variety of personal and professional reasons, I needed to step away from my contingent teaching job. (The personal reasons will stay personal.) But the professional reasons are very much tied up in being contingent. As I’ve stepped away, I’ve discovered something important.

Here’s the deal:

When you’re a contingent academic, you are bifurcated into two professional beings. Half of you is carved down into the being the university insists you become. But then there is the remainder of you, what’s left, the parts that the university doesn’t want. Often, those parts are the very best of you. What do you do with the leftovers? Squelch them down? Let them wither? 

This bifurcation played out for me like this: There was the Katie who worked at my contingent teaching job, working 50-60 hours per week course planning, curriculum designing, lesson writing, student conferencing, and grading. I worked and worked and worked, hoping that I wouldn’t actually feel bifurcated at all. I hoped I could fool myself.

It didn’t work.

So then there was the Katie who worked on the side seeking to complete the teaching/research intellectual circle. (There was no space in my contingent job description for the research and writing, unlike for my tenured/tenure-track counterparts.) So I squeezed in writing on the side, in the evenings, on the weekends. I wrote novels (two), poetry, short stories (even published some), articles (published so many! no one cared), conference presentations, and a monograph (unpublished).

I felt like I had a split personality. Like I worked three jobs. Like I was a terrible fucking mother. Enter the surprise personal crisis and my request for leave. And here I am.

To be a Freelance Academic is to recognize this bifurcation that we contingent professors face, and then to try to mend it. Yes, I do work for a university as a contingent professor. But I also write and research. No part of me will be squelched or allowed to wither.

But I’m not working 100-hour weeks, either. Because my goals have shifted.

Indeed, the biggest change required to become a Freelance Academic is to recognize that, in the words of a dear friend from grad school, They’re never going to let you in the club. I don’t think her words need spelling out—if they do, PM me on Twitter, and I’ll explain.

April is . . . [not what I expected]

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Many of you read my previous post, in which I posted a short story published back in 2008 (by the fabulous Bayou Magazine@bayoumagazine). I didn’t say in the previous post, but I’m sure many of you intuited, that the story is based on a true event. Pretty much everything after the first three paragraphs happened to me when I was a doctoral student just as written.

Well, of course those things happened to me. Rape is so common. Commonplace. Ordinary. Unexceptional. #duh [1]

Rape is commonplace until you try to prove to someone else that rape happened. That’s the sickening conundrum all rape victims find themselves in. We know rape happens all the time. And we know there’s nothing we can do about it—about what happened to us, or about what might happened to others (or us, again) in the future. Because the burden of proof lies and forever will lie on the victim.

And I knew all about burdens of proof back when I was raped. Because back when I was raped, when I was a doctoral student, I was also something else: a lawyer.

So no, I did not report this rape to anyone at the time. I told three people. (Well, and then the whole world in a short story, but that doesn’t really count.)

But here’s the thing.

I was raped in Chapel Hill, just off campus, by a student of UNC-Chapel Hill. And UNC-Chapel Hill at that time was doing a terrible job dealing with rape in its community, and continued to do so until March of 2013, when it was slapped with a gigantic federal investigation.

Now UNC is, apparently, trying to do better.

Now, weirdly, I’m a professor at the university where a student raped me and where other students are, right now, being raped and still don’t feel safe reporting being raped. [2]

All of what I’ve described has been on my mind this past week. And then I received an email this morning from UNC’s new Chancellor, with a wildly apropos first pair of words:

April is Sexual Assault Awareness Month, a time set aside across the nation to educate our communities about the impact of sexual and gender-based harassment and violence and to promote prevention. Since arriving in July, I have been impressed by the transformative nature of Carolina’s focus and the depth of engagement on student welfare and campus safety. Many students, faculty and staff have created a month full of activities, and there are more to come. I know we all appreciate and will benefit from their efforts.

April is. Yes, we know.

So here’s what I’m thinking: I want to report that I was raped years ago by a UNC-Chapel Hill student. I want my number on the University’s books. I want my rape counted. I want to be a statistic added to the other statistics from that year. [3]

I know many years have passed. But it happened, it happened here, and it should matter.

I’m curious to know, though: What will happen when I try to report? How will it go? Has a professor ever reported to campus sexual assault services before?

This might be hilarious and awful at the same time.

Naturally I will let you know.

[1] And of course it’s scary to talk about being raped in a wildly public forum. But if @cjprender, @steenfox, @zerlinamaxwell, and all the other brave women I know can do it, then I can too.

[2] I’m using the term “rape” all over this blog post. The term is accurate. But Universities really don’t like it. You won’t find “rape” anywhere in UNC’s student conduct policy.

[3] Updated, per a recent conversation on Twitter: I’m not going to report to the police, even thought I could, because N.C. has no statute of limitations for felonies. (What? That’s crazy! Yes, I know.)

Just Going to Leave This Here: A Blogging Prelude

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I published this piece of flash fiction in the literary magazine Bayou years ago (Issue 49 from 2008, if you are keeping count). I don’t write much short fiction or poetry any more, just keep tooling away on a couple of novels and dreaming dreams about them like many of us bloggers out here.

I’m seeding my next blog post (perhaps posts) by re-publishing this short story here. Enjoy.

Why Birds Have Wings

She is out with her brother, her brother who knows her. And her brother’s Friend who knows her too. They are all friends. She drinks and she likes to drink. She is good at drinking and not seeming to be drinking especially around her brother, who doesn’t like it when she drinks. Her brother’s Friend is nice, has always been nice to her, and he’s handsome, and a doctor. Her mother would like it if she married a doctor, she thinks, while they sit together in the tall chairs at the bar, drinking. They listen to the music and watch the people dancing. She likes to dance but knows she is too drunk to dance now, she wouldn’t dance well, so she sits instead, and listens to the Friend talk about the work he does, about saving people. He is a saver, she thinks, a saver, safe.

It’s getting late. The lights are brighter now inside and it is very dark, outside. This means it will be time to go soon. The Friend stands up, steps close to her seat, leans near her, tells her things, that she is beautiful. Beautiful, she thinks, to a man who can have many beautiful things. He puts his hands on her shoulders and squeezes. Her muscles shift shape to fit the shape of his hands, the hands that save people.

They are outside the bar now. Like magic. She doesn’t remember how they got there—she and her brother and the Friend. On the sidewalk that tilts toward the street like toward a rushing river. She holds the arm of the Friend and he supports her. She can’t stand on her own, she’s so drunk, but she pretends she wants to hold on to him, for the pleasure. She smiles at her brother. She reassures her brother. Her brother loves her, she knows. So she smiles and reassures and tells him she’s fine and he believes her. Of course he believes her. She could convince anyone, for a moment on a sidewalk. She convinces her brother that she wants to spend the night at the Friend’s house. She trusts the Friend. Her brother trusts him. Why shouldn’t she. He is a Friend. A saver. With good hands, magic hands.

It is a sliver of a moment until they arrive at his apartment. Until he is shaking her shoulder telling her to wake because they have arrived. When she wakes, she speaks but she can’t speak. Her voice has been stolen and replaced by garbled words that aren’t hers. She thinks these words are funny, and laughs as the Friend lifts her from the car. He tells her to be quiet. She tries to say she is sorry, so sorry, but the words fly away like birds.

He carries her inside, dragging her feet across the cement sidewalk, over the metal rim of the sliding glass door. When she feels the carpet under her feet, she considers falling down there and sleeping, knowing the softness will feel like goodness, and she can sleep there. She tries to ask the Friend if she can sleep on the carpet, but he tells her to be quiet, quiet, because his brother is sleeping. The Friend’s voice is sharper now, like the rattling of a cage. She stops laughing.

He helps her up the stairs to his room. She sees his bed. She is delighted and falls on it, lying on her side, pulling her knees to her belly, shutting her eyes, dreaming of sleeping. The Friend disappears into the bathroom. She wonders if he will come back but doesn’t care. She is so sleepy and only cares about sleep.

Then he is back and he is on her and he kisses her. She kisses him. She understands kissing. Kissing is nice. He lies on top of her. She can’t move her arms because her arms are like her words, no longer hers, garbled, uncontrolled. He pulls her up, holds her with one hand, one fist gripped around her arm, and with the other pulls off her shirt in one motion, then pulls her bra without unclipping it. The tightness of the bra catches on her arms and shoulders but the Friend keeps pulling until it is off of her, until it is gone. He drops her back onto the bed and she falls, falls, until the bed catches her. Now, she cannot shut her eyes, sleep has slipped from her like everything. He stands and removes his shirt, his pants, his everything. He pulls at her pants until the button slips loose, then yanks them from her feet. Her legs are garbled. He reaches for her panties. Her brain turns red. Red red red. She knows, despite this draining, what to do, to say. Magic. Magic words. She moves her muddled arms her mangled fingers to her hips, grabs hold to the edges of her panties, hangs on when the Friend would pull. No, she says. No. No. The only word she knows. The magic word. She holds on and speaks one word.

The Friend grabs her shoulder, squeezes, and turns her over, presses her stomach and face into the blanket, the hard mattress. She doesn’t let go of her panties. The Friend slips a finger under the lace edge of her panties between her legs and pulls aside the slender piece of fabric, pulls it aside the distance of two fingers or perhaps the distance of an ocean, and shoves himself inside.

She dies then.

She wakes three hours later to the chirping of birds.

She thinks of her brother first, as she slips out of the Friend’s apartment into bright light.

She tells no one. Because she no longer believes in the magic of words.


You can download the PDF of the short story if you’re interested. Also, you should visit Bayou’s truly gorgeous website (@bayoumagazine).

Liberal Heroes & The Colbert Twitter “Debate”

In case you missed it, feminist activist (that’s a compliment) Suey Park (@suey_park) and others led a charge against Stephen Colbert and his media conglomerate yesterday after a bit on his show and a tweet that ostensibly mocked the owner of the Washington Redskins by making fun of Asian people. Colbert’s conglomerate quickly deleted the tweet, but people screen-capped it.

Here it is.

deleted Colbert tweet

Suey Park, and others who supported her position on this issue, trended the Twitter hashtag #CancelColbert, and by the end of the night last night it was the top hashtag on Twitter.

suey tweets

(If you don’t know what that means, just know that it’s pretty cool.)

Here’s what’s not cool:

Soon after the hashtag started trending, soon after Ms. Park addressed the problems of the Colbert conglomerate’s use of Asian stereotyping in its failed attempt at satire, white, predominantly male Twitter users started attacking her and supporters. The attacks fell into a few categories.

(1) “You don’t get it, it’s just satire.” They cite Jonathan Swift. (ROFL.)

(2) “You are racist for attacking white people.” They cite MLK. (More ROFLs.)

and because this is Twitter and because Ms. Park is a woman who opened her mouth:

(3) “I’m going to rape/kill you.”

The first one is pretty easy to debunk. Satire, in case you don’t know, does not (and should never) sacrifice the weak and disempowered in its attempts to attack the powerful.

In Swift’s “A Modest Proposal,” the only group that comes off looking badly is the wealthy English—not the Irish poor. In Colbert’s so-called satirical “Foundation for Sensitivity,” he uses incredibly hurtful language, language that stands upon centuries-old history of oppressing Asian-Americans and depriving them of citizenship rights in this country. Colbert sacrificed Asian-Americans to make a rich white dude look bad. That’s not satire, that’s just a racist joke.

The second attack is also easy to debunk. White liberals love Colbert, and they rallied against any criticism of him, attacking Ms. Park for her #CancelColbert call. When Ms. Park and others pointed out—simply made an observation—that white men as a group were defending Colbert, they freaked out and called Ms. Park racist.


White people, especially white men, are not accustomed to having their actions pointed out to them in group terms. It feels uncomfortable. It feels…racist.

hurt feelings

But it isn’t. Don’t worry. It just isn’t. Observations of group behavior are just that—observations of group behavior. And here’s how a group behaved on Twitter last night (and still are last I checked):

White men—and many white women—keep leaping to the defense of Stephen Colbert, despite the appalling tweet and the attendant segment on his show.


I have a theory.

White liberals love Colbert. He’s their hero. Colbert (and others like him) is white liberals’ modern-day Atticus Finch. He’s a screen-based liberal hero who makes white liberals feel good about themselves by taking down easy conservative and right-wing targets.

What Colbert doesn’t do is take down the racism, sexism, able-ism, homophobia, and other prejudices that white liberals themselves carry. He doesn’t force his own viewers to look inside themselves and self-examine, at least not very often. He rarely makes his own viewers uncomfortable about themselves.

He does the opposite: he makes them feel great about themselves. Smug, even. So smug that they’ll defend a violently racist joke and threaten to rape and kill a woman in his defense.

Really? Yes. Just follow #CancelColbert and see for yourself.


This “Older Adjunct” & Her Many Responsibilities

Woodpile, Image by Pimpernel,

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In today’s riposte to the well-riposted article by Nicholas Kristof about why academics don’t write as public intellectuals, Corey Robin (@coreyrobin) touches on reasons why I, personally, haven’t done so.

So obviously his riposte is the very best riposte:

Writers and academics who fret over the fate of public intellectuals may think they are debating vital questions of the culture. But their discussions are myopically focused on the writing habits of a rapidly disappearing elite. The vast majority of potential public intellectuals do not belong to the academic 1 percent. They are not forsaking the snappy op-ed for the arcane article. They are not navigating the shoals of publish or perish. They’re grading. 

Robin’s piece for Al-Jazeera America is titled “The Responsibility of Adjunct Intellectuals,” and it addresses not only the overworked-ness of adjuncts, but also the precariousness of their jobs. This lack of job security might lead an intellectual with otherwise public thoughts to keep such thoughts to herself:

Nearly three-quarters of all instructional staff at colleges and universities today are not on the tenure track. They’re insecure, contingent workers, an army of cheap and casual labor that make the universities go. While young writers can afford to do the kind of intellectual journalism we see at the little magazines, older adjuncts teaching five classes can’t.

(Older Adjuncts FTW, y’all.)

Earlier this week I asked the Twitterverse how an academic writer can write about work inequities without getting fired. The question was meant to be funny, but I was also asking a real question.

One of the most pressing issues in higher education today is the very statistic that Robin mentions above: three-quarters of higher ed instruction is performed by contingent professors.

But here’s the problem: many of those best situated to write about this pressing issue are those who are most contingent. That is, we are most afraid of losing our jobs in higher ed if we write about our contingent status and what it means for higher education.

I’m an “older adjunct,” one with two kiddos and a mortgage. I spent my first four years at my current institution terrified that I would lose my job.

(I’m not sure what changed, except that after I had a premature baby, a young resident doctor in the NICU (idiot idiot insensitive idiot) told me that the baby might have come prematurely because I managed my stress poorly while pregnant.)

Corey Robin’s column leaves us with an important question, one that I will pose to folks on here and on Twitter:

Given our precariousness and our responsibilities, what is our responsibility as adjunct intellectuals?**

* Read Corey Robin’s post on his blog on this topic as well.

** For some excellent attempts to answer this question already, check out Joe Fruscione (@ProfessorF74), Rebecca Schuman (@pankisseskafka), Lee Skallerup (@readywriting), and others, including the #adjunctchat on Twitter.